I WANT TO DEDICATE THIS BLOG TO MY AWSOMEST BEST FRIEND STEFFI.
ON SATURDAY WE RECEIVED THE MOST DREADFUL NEWS OF STEFF'S PASSING. TO ME IT STILL FEELS LIKE IT IS ONE OF THE UTMOST BADEST DREAMS I HAVE EVER HAD.
When I heard the news I fell to my knees
My best friend Just passed away
why did she have to go?
Can I turn back the clock and wish it never happened?
Or do i have to suffer the pain?
Can i wish to see her one more time?
Or just remember the good times we had?
IT STILL FEELS SO UNREAL...I THINK AFTER 5 DAYS IT STILL HAS NOT SUNKEN IN THAT YOU ARE NOT AMONGST US ANYMORE...IT FEELS TO ME YOU WILL BE REPLYING MY EMAIL I SENT YOU THURSDAY NIGHT, ANYDAY NOW....THERE ARE MOMENTS I DO NOT FEEL ANYTHING, AND THEN SUDDENLY THIS STABBING PAIN IN THE HEART. IT FEELS LIKE IT IS ONE MASSIVE NIGHTMARE WE ARE GOING TO AWAKE FROM VERY SOON.
HERE IS A LITTLE POEM FOR YOU: (SORRY TO THOSE THAT CANNOT READ GERMAN)
Aus unserem Leben bist du gegangen,
in unserem Herzen bleibst du! Und immer sind irgendwo Spuren deines Lebens: Gedanken, Bilder, Augenblicke und Gefühle. Sie werden uns immer an dich erinnern und dich dadurch nie vergessen lassen. Ich hab dich lieb Steffi!
There is this wound it hurts so bad
it always appears when I am sad
No matter what I do it won't go away
its in my heart where it will always stay...
I wake up thinking of you,
I fall asleep thinking of you,
You were the light in the dark
The squeeze in a hug
And the sister in my heart
You made me feel happy and loved
I see the signs everywhere that you are present
But I never will stare in your eyes again...
If there was one thing, one thing at all...
I would just want that one last friend hugg....
I cry for you
I love you
Even through the distance....we always remained friends...though thick and through thin...
I LOVE YOU STEFFI, THE BEST "SISTER" I EVER WANTED... RIP ...THE PAIN OF A HEART BROKEN....
From the day I got to know you,
I thought it through again that maybe,
you could be my very best friend
I mean we got along quite well,
and helped each other through the bad that happened to me,
and the bad that happened to you
You cry when i cry because you really care
and stuff like that has contributed to the friendship
that we’ve shared
I’ve been there for you and you’ve been there for me,
me and you understand stuff that no-one else would see
You’re like the moon and I’m like a star,
we back each other up if we’re close or if we’re far
So we’ll always be friends no matter what the case,
no matter if we go separate ways no matter what we face.